Kinda confused about myself, am I gay?

18, For a long time I thought I was straight, although I've kinda been looking at it from a different way now.Full disclosure I've always looked at straight porn up until 2 years ago, rarely could get off to lesbian porn. Didn't really go after girls romantically either, more of just a friendship type thing, although my female friendships are pretty light and I hardly even care about them... Although I think I was still attracted to women in some way? But yeah, about two years ago I just looked at gay porn and I really liked it, especially the submissive aspect. and then a little while after I felt some really intense feelings for someone I knew.First time I got the "butterflies in stomach" feeling was for a guy.. I quit porn because I was kinda scared but the feeling and attraction didn't go away, started to notice it more and more.Just kinda scared from these feelings, don't want to turn out like something bad or flamboyant or something.. Feel kinda scared I'd be that way because i've been said to look feminine before, and didnt like it. Kinda scared what my parents would think. Still kinda unsure if I'm gay or not, or maybe just don't want to admit it.Advice?