What they'll never get

What they’ll never get Do you know what it’s like to sit alone in a lunchroom full of people? What it’s like to scarf down your lunch, just so you can avoid sitting alone? What it’s like to walk around with headphones in all day, not saying a word to anyone? How it feels to spend lunch writing stories about things people will never get? I do. All because I find men more attractive than women. I’m gay, and every day, I answer “yes” to every one of those questions. Some are worse than others, but mostly they’re all the same. Nobody wants to be alone. I’m just not the type of kid to ask anyone to sit with them, especially because I used to have a lot of friends. Unfortunately, they all ditched me right when I needed them most. I'm not a big trust guy. Sitting alone isn’t even the worst part, people have to do it all the time. The worst part is that I don’t talk to anyone. In all of my classes, the hallways, after school. Not even my family. As if being alone regarding people wasn’t enough, being in high school is a time to date. Every day, I’m surrounded by couples. Couples that only end up lasting a month or two, but still, couples. All I want is a boy to come and save me from myself. To make me feel needed, heard, and wanted. I don’t think he’s coming anytime soon. So I’m stuck. This is what they’ll never get.