I'm confused

I hope this is an appropriate place to post this in.I know I'm bisexual. I have came out to myself. But I still am somehow having doubts.I've recently had urges to push my sexuality, I've been sexually chatting with guys online, trying to for once in my life feel sexy. Tonight I tried snap chatting someone for the first time sexually. The experience was so hot to me but immediately after climaxing I felt this sense of sluggishness I guess. It's not shame but rather disappointment, then I thought that I would much rather have done this with a woman instead. The same thing happens when I watch gay porn. The act is insanely hot to me but it's not as satisfying in the end. How do I get past this feeling? I want to tell myself that it's alright and lust in it.I also have been fantasizing with meeting up with another guy, but I have no confidence in myself and I trust the honesty of the other guy. That's just me trying to stay safe and away from STDs. But I REALLY want to experience being with another guy. It has been this whole back and forth in my head.