Get to know one of the most exotic gay men in the world!

Hello I'm new to reddit, so I hope I don't get it all wrong.Some might hate me after my introduction, but maybe you will find me so exotic that it's interesting.Right: I'm a 40 years old gay man, never ever had sex or a relationship, however I live in a big liberal city, I'm not religious, and I've been out for ages, never had a proper job but (or because) I have a university degree, I have a rare hormonal condition which caused my body to develop slower, that's why I have always looked a lot younger than I was.So now I'm 40, look like 30, and have the life experience of a 20 years old, minus sex and drugs, plus university.I am not waiting for love, no, I just need to feel well enough with someone, and that I can't do with someone I never met before, so "sex dates" or "saunas" are not on my list.Woooh, now that that's out of my system, lemme tell you why I'm here. No, not to find him.I decided to change my life, to work on my self confidence (you can guess it's been very low), to improve my body and to finally find someone to lose my v-card with.But also, I decided against another therapy (had one years ago), as I want to be able to trust in my own potential, want to finally achieve things by myself, want to come over my social anxiety.However, I need someone to talk to. As you can guess, being myself, with all those weird attributes, isn't easy. I need some place to let my thoughts out. Some place to ask or answer questions. I'm here to see your reactions on my weirdness. I'm here to find out how to be social despite my unusual life.So please ask me stuff, give your comments, react, just please rather look away than looking down on me. Take me as I am or ignore me. I stopped judging myself for what society thinks is a negative trait, so I hope you join me in that!