My family knows me, me and my bf broke up. Soo confused rn

http://ift.tt/2iEZZR7 relationship was perfect. I was in love (still am). I haven't felt something like this before. I was so happy and so peaceful. We was caring each other in better way (we still do). But everything collapsed in last two weeks.Two weeks ago, my dad saw my whatsapp chat with my bf. It happened while I was working. Some family members (not dad, everyone says he doesn't know otherwise he would react at you so badly. But I'm so so sure that he knows) They had a talk with me like you should go to psychologist, this is a psychological problem. It is because you did not have sex with a woman... If you had that feelings, you wouldn't feel like this now. Even I told that I feel like gay since childhood, they always think something affected me. And when I talk with another family member, who wasn't in the first talk and understand my homosexuality better than anyone else, she said your dad may cause this situation. And when I hear the examples she gave from time i was so young, I thought she may be right. I also could not deny the part of me that likes girls a little bit. Like I don't wanna date with them, I don't wanna seek a girl, they don't turn me on, I can't see myself in a relationship with a woman, but having a sex with a woman does not sound disgusting for me. All of them makes a confusion in my head. I started to think like maybe dad had some effects on me (he definitely had, but don't know what they are). Because of that, my bf wanted to break up. Like you still wanna be normal and you didn't care that much, you always thought you may be with a girl in the future. I really cared him, he kinda misunderstood me. We may reunite soon (wish we can), but I don't wanna lie to my parents anymore when I go outside. And ending a relationship is really really bad if you have no serious problems between each other like arguing so badly with many bad words.For two weeks, I've been going to psychologist. I talked about myself, also my mom and aunt told him about me before I went. Firstly he wants to focus on my anxieties, my lack of self confidence, afterwards he wants to focus on my homosexuality. Also I told my dad stuff and he said I have "sexual identity disorder", but I searched for it and I definitely don't fit into this term. And I also don't think that my homosexual feelings will suddenly disappear after a "therapy" period. And I don't already want to go there. I don't wanna feel like I will be "fixed". Because I was happy, peaceful in the time I had relationship. I can really say that it was the best period in my life. I can't find words to tell my feelings. The thing that makes me happy nowadays is that me and my ex bf did not lose connection. We still talk, care each other, but not in that way (which makes me sad (and probably him too)).I'm stuck and don't know what to do. I don't wanna lose my family, I also don't wanna lose him. I talked with some gay friends, they say you can't find a relationship like this, if you love him, keep going, don't lose him. I already don't want to. I really don't know what to do. I want to clarify my real feelings (if I have for women or not) later, not in the middle of a nice, cute and peaceful relationship. Some of you guys probably had something like this, what should I do? Please show me a way. :((((TL;DR my family learned that I'm gay, they say it's a psychological problem. Me and my bf broke up, and I've started to go psychotherapist, I don't wanna lose him and keep relationship going with him. I don't know what to do, need help