I don't know what I am anymore.

Hi. I am on JetBlue flight that was delayed for 10 hours. So this post might have some frustration mixed in. Anyway. I knew I was gay since I was 11 (now 26) and had a dream about naked guys under rainbow lights and woke up with jizz in my pants. I had a lot of relationships, fuckups, hookups... i was very easily attaching to guys though, and I knew it. I learned to control it somehow bit, in last two years I didn't feel shit. Nothing. No emotions. Complete numbness. Even having sex does nothing for me. Kissing, something I used to live for does not do anything for me. No butterflies anymore and no excitement for anyone. I feel so untouchable. I didn't cry in two years. Just completely detached. Or whatever. I am afraid I am losing best of myself. And I always thought it was my capability to feel. To love. Now, nothing. I kept trying to connect with people. But I really can't force myself into anything anymore. I just... yearn for something. Something that will kick me out of this. I still might have feelings for one of my exes... but only when I look at the picture of him on last.fm. That's where he didn't block me. But that feeling is not of anything specific. Just a pinch in my stomach that goes away quickly. I am honestly lost. Does this happen to anyone?