having troubles.

i'm in terrible ruin and don't have many people i can talk to about this. i'm out to my family and friends and all, but i just don't want their opinion.i'm single as of a month ago (first time really in 8 years) and i don't know what to do with myself. my first ex i dated for 6 years, got cheated on. my second ex for 2 that split a month ago, got cheated on.the first ex i have a hard time talking about because we bought my childhood house and had plans of raising our children in the room i was born in. the relationship was toxic towards the end (he was stealing my money to buy pills and i was (still am) and alcoholic and addicted to dxm) so it had to be ended. we we're happy but grindr had to ruin my fuckin life. i place 50/50 blame on him and the app. i know he wouldn't have done it without grindr because he was too shy to approach anyone but the nasty ass app makes it so easy for good decent men to cheat on good decent men with worthless sluts. i'm 22 now and had dated my first ex from age 14 to 20. we met in high school and everything was perfect.after we split i moved from michigan to georgia to start clean and that's where i met my second ex. we met on grindr. we had trust issues from the start because of the fuckin phones and the apps but we made it work. i moved him into my parents house with me because his previous living conditions were 3rd world. no running water/lights/squalor. 2 months ago he admitted to my brother that he jacked off into his boxers and had a huge crush on him. he told my mother and my mom kicked him out of the house. after he was gone my mom told me that his phone (bought him an iphone and activated a plan in my name) was synced over wifi to her imac the whole time that kept all his pictures and texts and app data. so right then and there my anxiety rocketed because i had a feeling more shit was gonna hit the fan. so i called him and told him that fact and he admitted to cheating on me with over 10 guys. he then tells me that he had gonorrhea at some point and worried that he might be hiv positive.here i am a month later talking to someone else now. this one is nice and seems innocent but i'm still destroyed and haven't told him the whole story. he knows about my second ex bits and pieces.should i even keep trying?