... And just like that it's over

I'm going to break it down really quickly; Video call; he was drunk as shit, but that's OK. Talking, joking, sending nudes, the typical stuff. He lives in America, I live in Europe. Long distance relationships wont' work he keeps telling me. I want to move there and be with him. He's been always sending mixed signals, so between joke and joke I went serious and told him the great three words: "I love you" and I want to be with you, I want to move and blabla.And then BAM!You are not really my type. Look I'm kind of dating this guys (sends picture of some guy I thought was from a model's magazine)Eh? You dating him? Is he going to be your boyfriendYeah maybe.He is form another country (same continent). Long distance relationships aren't a problem as long as it's in the same continent... Irrelevant. The thing is that in that very moment, like 22 hours ago, I sunk. I drowned; I really felt like I didn't have air and everything around me faded away, the pain was physical and I'm partially still there, the numb feeling is gone, but the rest persists. I just lost my love, which was obviously just a fantasy, an illusion. I got paralysed, couldn't talk, move, anything.And he told all this like somebody who tells you "tomorrow is going to rain, it seems". And Kept joking and showing me his naked ass. I love that ass. I mean it, I love every part of him but his body is just one of the thing. His smell, his laugh, his eyes, the way he moves, the way he eats, sleep, makes love....I'm not super ugly or there's anything wrong with my body. I'm your average joe; going to gym, eat healthy, decent body, Spanish face.He's all buffed, totally pumped, all the way. Hairy. You'r grindr inaccessible guy. We met on holidays. Summer loves rarely works outside the beach, right?Would I stop? Oh Lord no. I kept texting him and saying the three big words. He's now on "online" status, but doesn't go over my texts. Probably chatting with the magazine dude. I'm not sure I can blame him choosing such stud over me. Geez, in the picture he was wearing a chain as necklace that probably weights more than me... I'm exaggerating, but you get the mental image of him.Anyways, I needed to tell somebody. It is funny to see who much love is present in our society but when it comes to reject, unrequited love or heartbreaks there's so little sympathy.I really don't need advice. I know I have to cut him from my life. But just typing "cut him from my life" pains enormously. I believe I will degrade myself some more until I eventually realize that horse is dead... It's been always dead.