MY MOM WONT LET ME USE MAKEUP BECAUSE IM A GUY AND SHE THINKS IT LOOKS WEIRD ON GUYS

Ok so I’m 15 (no job have to wait until 16 of course) and I suffer from depression and social anxiety and Ive been going through a dark time these past months and when I discovered I liked makeup back in like June it really helped me and I immediately became obsessed with it. So, my has like this makeup drawer and I use the simple items in there but today she discovered I’ve been using her makeup products and she’s banned from wearing makeup and she says I can’t wear it like ever and now I’m a bit angry and sad. What should I do?