2017. szeptember 30., szombat

Advice needed about relationships.

I apologize in advance for the long, scatter-brained post.To begin with, I am a 17 year old senior in high school and I just recently came out to 3 friends. (Yes, I am fully aware that I am very young.) Although I may explore the possibility of coming out to more people who I am certain are LGBT+ friendly, I do not plan on coming out to my family for a very long time. I am from south Mississippi and the vast majority of people here do not view members of the LGBT+ community in a nice way, to put it simply. My family would in no way, shape, or form be supportive towards me if I came out to them, or word got out that I was openly gay. So this, in and of itself, puts me in a complicated situation.Now to the issue for which I need advice:I have always wanted to have an intimate relationship with someone. Earlier this year, I decided I would begin the search for a person I could be in a long-term relationship with. However, being closeted and in a very small town where almost 100% of the population is assuredly straight, this is difficult. I’ve searched the Internet for different forums that are meant for finding people, and I have found people who would claim they were looking for a relationship as well. (It is worth noting all of these relationships have been long distance, as I see no other option considering my current predicament concerning location and such.) However, as months went by, each relationship collapsed due to the other person lying and cheating. With each relationship failing, my already-existent trust issues have grown exponentially. I’ve developed a sense of “hopelessness” and feel as though I will “never find someone.” I realize I am very young. I realize that finding someone takes time (a LOT of time). I have not been able to try any REAL dating apps/websites such as Tinder and OkCupid since I am still under 18. I just have a desperate desire to “be loved” in an intimate way, as cliché as that sounds. I have read many other posts on multiple forums, including Reddit, talking about the “gay hookup culture” and this does not help my feelings of hopelessness towards finding a serious partner. I do plan on attending a major university next fall, but it will be an in-state institution, so I’m not sure how large the LGBT+ presence will be on campus. This is also discouraging because college seems to be the time where people find one another and get into serious relationships. I don’t want to be in my mid-to-late 30s when I finally start dating. I suppose I sound like a very impatient, typical teenager. And maybe that’s true. But even so, it does not change how I feel. My standards aren’t too low, but they’re not by any means high. I have been very vocal about my feelings in these past long distance relationships and I don’t bottle things up. I always communicate how I feel and I do not know what I am doing wrong. It’s all very discouraging. Here are a few questions I have:1) Am I alone in wanting more than just hookups? (In my case, it is not hookups, but asking for nudes and then blocking each other on the social network which you met.)2) Where should I look for a relationship, since my local community is very small (just over 12,000 people) and homophobic?3) How is the LGBT dating scene at university? What about at Southern universities?4) Is it even possible to find a very serious partner before age 30? I’ve read post after post after post saying how difficult it is to find people, and even after age 30, people still seem to struggle finding others wanting the same things. It is very disheartening.I apologize for the long post, but I would appreciate any feedback. I am human and OBVIOUSLY have many flaws. I’m realize I am young and still learning things about dating (and myself), but I do know exactly what I look for in a partner. Any and all advice and constructive criticism is greatly appreciated. Thank you.tl;drI’m young and dumb and want love but every past relationship I have attempted has failed due to the other party member being dishonest and cheating. Because of this, I have lost hope. I can’t search for a relationship in my community because I’m not out of the closet except to a small number of people, and my community is very small and homophobic. So is my family. (Refer to numbered questions above for things I would like answers to. Thank you.)

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