I hate being Black & Gay

Just being honest. I hate that I was born Black and gay, probably the worst thing to happen for me. At first I was happy but the longer I've tried dating in the gay scene, the more I loathed it.I hate the BBC stereotype though in fairness, I'm a bottom so maybe Black guys who are tops don't mind it . I certainly hate it though and it's either be a Dom BBC top or just get your dog now and call it a life. I also can't stand the stereotype of Blacks guys all having HIV/AIDs.I have a good friend of mine who is white and of the same build as me (we're both slim and bottoms) and he never seems to have trouble finding guys he likes. He's a great guy and I'm happy for him but I can't help but feel jealous of how easy he has it (well easier compared to me, I'm sure it's not always perfect). Even my other friend who is Latino has more luck.And for the record, I don't think that not choosing to date a black person or whomever makes someone racist but I'll be honest and say that I wish I wasn't but oh well, such is life I guess. :/