Got turned away from a grindr hook up, and have no idea how to feel

Hi! This is my first post! Last night I got a bit drunk and ended up organising a grindr hook up. The guy was quite pleasant while messaging and I had told him I was a bit nervous.So I arrive, he is welcoming, there is porn on his telle, and 2 other guys which I didn't know would be there. One is smoking a pipe and I asked him what it was and he said crystal meth, I kinda felt uncomfortable then, but it gets worse!So two more men turn up at this house, one had a shower as soon as he walked in and the other took off his clothes and stripped down to his boxers. Basically they are all doing drugs and they start sucking each other off, one guy was chatting to me ALOT, the crystal meth guy, I felt odd about it and tried to put it aside.THEN, the guy who I originally spoke to who is being sucked off by boxer boy turns to me and says you have to leave! It was so awkward! It's really effected me! I keep feeling really insecure about it!I have no idea what to think or how to feel about it! But it's definitely effected my confidence and made me feel pretty shit to be honest.Any advice?