Yesterday was interesting...

So, I honestly am shocked by what happened, that I wanted to share it with someone, but I know if I did it on any other social media account, she would know who I am talking about and I get so nervous talking about it, especially to her. Sorry doll face, but I can't help how nervous I get talking about him to you. Before I get in deep, um... here's small info on me... I am 18 hispanic and the guy I will be talking about is also 18 and hispanic, but ¿straight? We had a very "close" friendship. That was middle school. We didn't hang or talk at all during highschool as I left out of state in 2014 and returned at the beginning of 2016 to finish Senior year. ONTO THE short story... Yesterday, I had to go to his house to give something to his father, so I walked and I saw the lights on, and also his blue car. I prepared myself, I felt so brave before knocking and BAM, I see him and my God... He is still the same person as I left two years ago, the same face, his voice, and I like froze for two seconds. I am so surprised I did not blush hard at all, I was going to ask him if Mr. --- was there, but I felt as though that was too polite, and I also asking myself if I should talk to him in Spanish, but I instead blurted out in English If his father was there, he said no, so I told him to give him something and that theres that stuff and stuff, and he said that he would make sure he would give it to his father and in my head, I wanted to just say to take care, like we always did, did I mention that he was my first ever crush/love???but I said thank you and when that door closed I felt so happy and nervous and scared and I felt butterflies in my stomach and I felt so confident after talking to him in such a long time. I WANTED TO SCREAM AND JUMP AND LIKE RUN AROUND, because I thought I would do something embarrassing and mess up, but no. I acted like a decent adult. I am so proud of myself. I would have never had the courage to ever do something like that, but I wonder what he thinks of me after what we did. I wouldn't mind talking with him one on one about what happened, but... I just wanna ask him, why did he do the things he did? I am like the so freaking shy, and I blush so easily and it is so embarrassing because I turn so red. I am not insanely shy, but I am a bit shy. I just feel stupid walking up to him or coming near him. loser alert lmfao