I want a boyfriend😢😢😢😭😭😭

I see so many cute guys ( im gay) and wonder when I'll finally be able to have someone in my life that will hold me, kiss me, cherish me, and be all mine.... I often wonder if something's wrong with me... Maybe I need to smile more. Most guys seem shy if not quiet...😔😞😒 maybe I have to be the first to make the first move. Maybe I have to make a fool out of my self and be rejected by a few dozen before the right one accepts me... Once again... So many cuties... And yet still single... Redditt... What is your advice? Yes I do literally laugh out loud and try to initiate conversations... Not sure what I could be doing wrong???🙁😒