Post break up rant:

I started this about a year ago. Post break up rant I wrote on my "notes" on my phone every time I felt anything towards him...You know why it didn't work. I kept trying and you kept brushing me off, over and over again. I knew you had a lot to do, I tired my best to support you and give you as much space as you wanted, yes it sucked that I never got to see you. But after a while there's only so much rejection a guy can take, begging to have dinner with you, a conversation...just a moment that's all I wanted. Just some time...Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.Anyone that truly cares about you will never put you last on their list....C....I don't understand what you want from me but I'm getting tired of this game your playing. You text me then say nothing after I respond.You're doing it again, where you seem like you care but then I get ditch again and again, all over. Just like before.You don't really care, so just stop, it's exhausting.I need to stop trying so hard for someone who doesn't want to even see me. It's been over a year and he has never made time for me. You ask and he avoids you, directing your questions else where, he reads my texts and don't response.You know , you could just say no. I've been trying for a while but you been hurting me every time you don't say anything.Don't fall hard again for someone who doesn't have time or even put in any effort to be there for you.But I can't get him out of head. I want him to leave but I want him still.Ugh just get out of my head.😕I feel nothing. [blocked]