2017. január 2., hétfő

Irony at its finest?

So here is my situation. I was/am in love with a guy called Niko for about 5 months now. He said I wasn't his type and I'm trying to accept it and move on. We didn't have a relatonship. In fact, we met only three times in these 5 Months, because I went to France for a semester, which is now about to finish. Next week probably, I will be home again. When I visited home, we met because I really wanted to see him again. Eventually he told me that he is dating another guy named Max. Heartbroken, but still tried to keep contact with him. Weeks later I confessed to him my feelings in a letter after we had some stupid fight. After talking about it, we didn't have any contact. It's been now nearly two months. I could stay friends with him, but I'm not sure if he wants it, even if he mentioned it. Maybe it was out of pity, I don't know, but that's not important here. I even send him a "Happy New Year" to which he didn't respond. (You might think right here that he is an asshole.)Since we met on Grindr (just for the record: Niko texted me first) I still have the app. Now a new boy texted me, and he seems really cool and cute, although I'm still unsure, but I would give him a chance. Something that Niko didn't gave me, but well...Now here is the thing. I kind of feel conned, because not only does this new guy resemble Niko in terms of appearence. Guess what? His name is also Max. So I'm kind of talking to Niko's clone who has the same name as Niko's new guy (don't even know if they're boyfriends by now, probably yes, probably not - only they know what they are -.-'). As if this whole situation wasn't messing enough with my mind. My brain just hurts. -.-'Of course I'm trying to see him as an individual who is different from Niko. Nobody is the same, especially since he seems to be really cute. But as I said, I kinda feel conned.Is the universe trying to tell me something? Does it want to punish me? Or is this just a bad joke? I kinda think that this is funny, but most of the time I feel some sort of betrayed by the world. I already get reminded of Niko everyday by other things, which is already hard enough to endure, but this is honestly the top of irony. Like, seriously?! Why me? -.-'Have you experienced similiar situations? If so, what did you do? This whole situation is honestly just bullcrap.

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