Boston-area gay male in really bad situation & needs help...

This is humiliating, but if doing this can help me and perhaps also others in the process then it's worth it. I'm a gay writer/filmmaker that has made a few short films and also written a sci-fi screenplay but that doesn't not mean that I'm successful unfortunately. I'm in my 40's, haven't worked in a few years at least in part because I suffer from PTSD and depression. My story is similar to most gay men...grew up with an abusive narcissistic father in a dysfunctional household, being called a f-g at school over and over again, been close to suicide multiple times as a teen and as an adult, and then had an emotional breakdown in July 2008 and haven't worked since. I've been evicted once (I paid my rent, it just happened for no good reason) and am now living in a barely tolerable situation with a flaky roommate and an apartment building with too much noise. My family helps me financially with my dad throwing guilt trips, emotional blackmail, and mind games at me every chance he gets. He is now saying the money will end soon. All sounds wonderful, right?I've done job searches, job training, counseling, pills, disability, the whole 9 yards multiple times in the past. It always ends in more pain. Since I found films and writing, I can't see myself ever going back to sitting in cubicles around unhappy underpaid people and getting grief from customers and co-workers alike. Been there, done that...too many times. Doing it again will just traumatize me more. I want to be a writer and/or filmmaker full-time but I can't get hired/paid for it. I'm lost, miserable, and alone.Any advice or help that anyone can offer would be greatly appreciated. Thanks