Finally Did It...Should I Feel Shamed? I Do. :/ [NSFW]

Hey guys, throwaway account here for reasons which will becomve ovvious momentarily.I'm pretty sure I have a pee fetish - and I thibk I have for several years. I'm gay, and I am 20 now, and I finally just peed on myself for the first time. I didn't even plan on doing it either - I just thought about it and and was liek "Sure, I'll do it."And I really, really liked it. It was deinitely weird (even though I liked it), and I feel so ashamed that I liked it. I feel ashamed that I am planning on doing it again tomorrow.I mean, should I be feeling this way? I showered thoiroughly right after (I did it in the shower and all the remnants got washed away) and I don't think I smell like pee at all. I am a very clean person so I would NOT like to be even smelling like it at all after.Sorry if this is too disgusting for this sub. I just want you guys' opinion on this.Should I be ashamed of it? If your partner wanted you to pee on him, would you? If you have a per fetish - are you ashamed of it/would you be ashamed tk ask your partner about it?