Feeling very depressed lately about the fact that I'm the only gay guy around

Ok I'm not the only gay guy around but I'm the only normal one. The rest are just not attractive to me or are way to feminine and I fucking hate it. All my friends have someone and get to be in a relationship and fuck but I have nothing here for me.I've tired ignoring the problem and saying it will get better after my last year of highschool but goddamnit I don't know what the fuck to do. According to many those dating apps for gays are just people looking to hookup so I'd have no luck there and I honestly don't know what else to do. Coming out is social suicide and I'd lose a lot of friends doing so.So can someone just please give me an answer on how to find someone? Not some bs cryptic type answer but a real answer. Cause I'm just depressed and sad as fuck typing this and I just feel like breaking down.