My best friend is extremely attractive and straight, and I'm the exact opposite.

First off, I don't know any other place to post this and I don't really know what to gain from this. I just kind of need to get this off my chest, I guess.So relatively recently, I quite literally stumbled into a guy at my Uni's lunch line who almost took my breath away. He's a few inches taller than I am, really athletic and seriously a dream. It was the beginning of the year so we both just introduced ourselves and made friends out of each other. Despite how attractive he his, I'm more fortunate now that I've been able to be friends with him as he's a pretty cool guy. What's sad though, is that I kind of see him as the exact person I will never be, and always want to be.As cliche as this sounds, every time we are in public, many girls and even quite a few guys check him out intensely. It's not that hard to spot people staring at him, but in some ways, as self conceited as it sounds-I wish I had the ability to know what that's like; to be "that one straight guy" all the girls talk about and stare at.It's just kind of depressing to me, that I'll never be able to be like the guy that I wish I could be like, whether that'd be his body, his looks, his sexuality, his intelligence, or anything. I just kind of feel like this lonely gay kid who has never had any relational encounter and nothing to look towards because I'm different, and not very many people in this town would like me because of that.I don't know why I bothered much to post this here, I just feel so sad because I've gone so long feeling like I just don't fit in anywhere and I never will be able to. Sorry for the rant