I know that I'm gonna get yelled at about this...but I think I'm gay...yet too hot to be a lesbian.

I know I'm a lesbian, but I never meet hot girls that are gay AND my type. So... I stay closeted. It's ridiculous but I just feel like, in my experience, I have better luck with finding dudes that I connect with. Nine out of ten times the gay girls that I meet are not my top and not the type that I'm attracted to. Help!