Lonely gay male

I am a gay male. I hate that I am.All the gays I know or see online are super girly, hooking up blindly with strangers all over the place, hyper-sexual, exactly what I am NOT into.If I were straight I'd be married with kids. No doubt. If this is what my life is going to be like, I don't want to live it.My days are numbered.My frustration for this is even getting in the way of my writing. I just don't know what to say or why I'm even saying it.I search gay guys on POF... My options are the stereotypical gay guy. I search straight guys on POF and they're exactly what I want.F*** this curse.F*** my life.