2017. január 25., szerda
I came out as gay today.
I'm not really sure where to start. I grew up in a strictly religious household. In fact, my father is the pastor of a church that is not necessarily gay affirming. Suffice it to say that religion played a large part in my upbringing, and I was raised to believe that I was built to marry a good christian woman, and live happily ever after. I was, after all, a good christian boy. Another important character in this story is my best friend who shall be called Steve. Steve is an amazing guy, he's been there for me as long as we've known each other. No matter what, he's got my back. Anyway, I was a pretty average boy growing up. I got along with the boys in my class just fine, gossiped about which girls we "liked", etc. I even had several unsuccessful eighth grade relationships. For all intents and purposes, entering high school I was a very standard heterosexual dude. It was probably around grade 11-12 when I realized something was a little different. Much to my buddy Steve's dismay, I would do this thing where I'd start flirting with a girl, get really close, but not actually end up dating her. This actually frustrated me just as much as Steve, since I had no idea at the time why I simply seemed to lack any romantic feelings toward these girls, who were super awesome people. Steve ended up chalking it up to "commitment issues". This trend continued all the way up until university. In my first year, I was really starting to realize how much more sexually attracted I was to some of the cuter guys in the class than the girls. Even still, I did not tell anyone, because I was (and still am) living at my parent's place, and they would be quite upset if I came out to them. Actually, at one point my father actually straight up told me that having a gay son would devastate him. So, it stayed a secret. Fast forward one year and we get to where I am now. Today, I was chilling with Steve and a couple more really close friends, and the topic of things that we've never told anyone before came up. In the moment, I decided that it was time to get real with my best friends, so I told them everything. They were totally accepting, and I feel so good knowing that I don't have to hide this from them any more. Now, I need advice on how to move forward. I don't know if I should tell my parents, I still live with them and I fear they'll be outraged. I don't know if I should tell any of my siblings either. Does anybody else who has had to come out in similar circumstances have any wisdom to share?
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