Does connecting your homosexuality to some reasons make sense? I guess not. (pouring myself out)

My previous post: http://ift.tt/2kqjVqz my family knows me, I've been going to psychologist (actually psychotherapist). According to me, psychologists shouldn't see homosexuality as a problem. He always tells some reasons like maybe those reasons made you gay. I don't think like those reasons never affected me, probably they had some effects on my sexuality, but they definitely are not the main reasons. Actually there is no reason according to me. I was born this way!! If you're gay, you're gay. Why should I always think like there were some reasons and they made me gay? I feel gay and I don't feel any interest to women since I knew myself. He says I don't have any interest to women because I spent too much time with mom, that's why you don't feel anything. Ok, this may be a reason, but it doesn't change the fact that I wanna be closer with a guy since childhood.I know my family thinks that I didn't act like straight guys in my childhood. I was already thinking about it and hearing from my best friend that she was being asked about my sexuality like is he gay, what do you think.. They already knew that and when they learn from my messages (check previous post) and me, they thought it's a psychological problem and can be fixed. I don't think so ...He also says like because of this, this and this reasons; you felt yourself closer to your bf. This should be good actually, to feel closer to someone. He definitely thinks like this is wrong. And he keeps saying that if relationship continues, erotism involves in someway. Of course it will be involved. Wouldn't it be weird if there is no erotism between partners? LOL. Not thinking about sex while being with someone, of course you wil think and try to do something...He also keeps saying that there is no fully integration between men like between man and woman with penis and vagina, they don't fit each other and partners try some stuff one by one and this is against the purpose of creation of human.If you feel really gay, like I am (I was identifying myself as bisexual, but after a relationship not anymore..), thooooose reasons should not matter, and I should be able to have a bf with no problems.I know, as a Muslim, I should also think about my religion. Homosexuality is a sin like in all religions, but it does not make sense. If you have a feeling to a human being, how can it be a sin? Anyway, it is too deep stuff...I was always confused, I still am. I'm not sure about my future. All of stuff happening in last month (thooose psychologist, family stuff) make me think like I have to choose my way at this point. I mean they push me in this way at this period. To be gay or not to be gay... Yeah we broke up with my bf because of this reasons, but it doesn't mean i forgot him. We still talk, help and support each other, but without love thing, all of talks are a bit "artificial". Like we don't use love words or kinda avoid to talk about those stuff. I think I can't forget him for a loooooong time.I believed in love with him, love songs started to make sense for the first time in my life, but I lost all my faith to love after breaking up. I don't think I'll be that happy again. I know I'm too young to say that, but I lost my belief, it's real.Just wanted to pouring myself out...