That time you fell for your straight friend

What happened? How did it end?A bit after high school but before coming out, I had a friend who always talked about girls and military.I questioned his sexuality since he's slightly homophobic.Anyway, before I knew it I was fantasizing about him on the dl.Peak of my crush was one night we got very drunk and slept on his bed in just boxers. I managed to hug his shirtless body the entire night until he woke up.He made nothing about it so I didn't either. Our friendship eventually faded because he ignored me before going to the military and I went off to college.Last I heard he was engaged, could be married now.Thanks to him I did learn how to shoot a gun even though I don't care for them.