I'm really upset right now. I'm a average looking blonde haired guy. I like to think I'm not bad looking. I have a job that pays decent money and I'm working on school. But I have a really hard time meeting quality women. I go out all the time and try to meet women and I see all these trashy women at bars and clubs.
Last summer I met the girl of my dreams and she was this really pretty 22 year old from Colombia. I chased her for months. Took her on dates, hugged her, flirted with her, even stole a few kisses. But never anything overt. The night before she left to return home to her country, she was affectionate to me and left me wanting for more. So for a week, I day dreamed about traveling there and cultivating some kind relationship that would somehow eventually work out (unrealistic, I know...) So shortly after returning home, I get a text from her and she tells me, "I have a girlfriend." I was speechless. I mean she has to have known that I liked her as more than friends. And to be fair she even said to me that she likes me "as a friend" to subtly indicate that she was really into me. However she did express affectionate and flirty behavior. I'm just sad because I did what always do. I read to much into what I wanted to believe and refused to face that fact that she wanted nothing more than friendship. And now I feel like a fool -- not only for continuing to chase a woman who was not interested in me, but a woman who doesn't isn't even attracted to my gender. I'm now left wondering why she ever had anything to do with me in the first place. Does she consider me to be some kind of gay friend or something? It's like she was sending affectionate signals, of "hey we're both sexually unconventional people and it's totally cool!" and I was reading them as, "Hey I think you're really cute, but I'm leaving the country and I'm afraid to start anything too serious with you!" Where do I go from here?
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