Male, 34 throwaway here. Sexually experienced with only heterosexual sex until last year. I was on a gay/trans pornography kick when I decided to try it out in real life.
After some craigslist/ grindr searching I found a perfect match; feminine, kinky, into 'straight guys'.
So we meet at a motel. It was pretty overwhelming and I couldn't cum / maintain an erection. But some parts were fun!
I loved eating ass, I loved anal sex and I loved afterwards him grinding on me until he came. I enjoy all these things in my heterosexual life as well, so no big surprises there.
But it's what I didn't enjoy that keeps me from doing it again without some guidance from you.
I didn't like kissing a man, I didn't like sucking dick. I'm not big into having mine sucked either - gay or straight, just doesn't do it for me.
Part of me fantasizing about another man is being dominant. Since kissing and giving oral feels submissive to me, and that submission makes me feel, well in any other circumstance i'd say 'gay' lol. Anyway I can see how psychologically it could be a turn-off. The question then becomes how selfish is it to request this man basically just let me use him for my sex.
A few weeks ago he texted me that he wants to have sex again. I briefly contemplated telling him what I've just told you. But I feel like it's beyond selfish on my part. If I asked you:
"I would love to get together again, but I'm not into kissing and I don't >like giving oral. But if you're cool with it, I'll give you a rim job before >anal, then you can grind off on me and that's it".
Should I try and see? Should I try giving head again? Should I just get an anal loving gf and leave gay people alone?
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