This is starting to really bother me.

Masculinity does not attract me. It does not turn me on. I love penises, I find vaginas repulsive. I am attracted to females, but penises are great. I'm a bottom.Every time I see attractive guys on the street I ask myself... Am I attracted to him? The answer is always, I want him to fuck me, but no, he is not very attractive.This cognitive dissonance is fucking with me more and more every day. It's not pleasant. I want to drool over guys. I want to simply be attracted to them... But I'm just fucking not. I really hope it never turns into more of a mental issue for me, because it's already something I spend an unhealthy amount of time stewing over.Anybody able to identify with me on this? Maybe give advice?