2014. december 22., hétfő

Not with a bang, but with a whimper....

My boyfriend of 8 years and I unexpectedly broke up last night. It was 100% my fault. He was my first and only boyfriend, and I fucked it up. I've spent the last 24 hours drugging myself with antidepressants, but our lives are so intertwined everything I own reminds me of him, plus we live together.I really don't know where to go from here. I'm not attractive (apparently so much so when I message people on Grindr they either ignore me, or respond with "gross") and know I'm going to spend the rest if my life alone, and have no idea how I'm going to make it through Christmas and dealing with my family. I have no friends (and I mean literally zero friends) so I cant ever talk to anyone about it, and I really don't know where to go from here or what to do. I'm not even sure why I'm posting this here, I just feel like I'm adrift in a limitless ocean with no plan, no tools to deal with the situation, and just waiting for the inevitable..

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