My first two semesters at school, engineering major, weren't amazing but whatever, 3.0 to that point. This semester, though, things have really really fallen to shit.I have a few reasons. I did get mono pretty early on but that's not it, depression intensified a lot this semester, which has a lot to do with it. At least as much to do with it is that I'm just a fucking space cadet. I sympathize with people that think ADHD is bull, but I really wasn't that lazy this semester. I drank just twice, I cut way back on videogames and extracurriculars. But I still did really shitty. Maybe I ought to get back on stimulant meds, which I've only taken a handful of times because of the appetite loss.Regardless of the why, this semester is gonna look like ass on my transcript. I'll probably have a 2.3 GPA coming out of this semester. Now engineers don't need to have something super super high... But, it's hard to work past that. And I feel pretty worthless, especially comparing myself to others I know. I feel like I've fucked up my future. It doesn't help that this guy I've had a tenuous long distance type fling with is a senior who totally has his shit together and has been on the dean's list every semester... I don't really feel good enough at all.Sorry if this isn't appropriate for the sub, it's just bothersome because the worthlessness I've felt for a while I can partially attribute to depression, but the shitty grades (probs like a 1.5 semester GPA) feels more logical which is scary.
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