Men are so confusing

Honestly, I feel like how I feel about men is how most straight men feel about women. I have no idea how they operate and they are just so intimidating to me. Being bullied in elementary school for not being masculine enough or good at sports certainly didn't help at all. PE was nothing short of traumatising to me back then. I have no idea how to have close male friends (most of my male friendships are acquaintance level at best), let alone be in a relationship with one. How do you guys get on making more male friends?I have no problem jacking off to gay porn often though :/ maybe that's why I'm struggling to see men as actual humans