2018. április 17., kedd

I am feeling alone when I probably shouldn't

I am a guy who moved in with my boyfriend pretty fast actually. He was worried about my depression so he wanted me to move in pretty fast with him. I feel like there is alot which has happend pretty fast, I feel like he has been rushing and already settled while I haven't really, I feel like iv'e been moving above my depression and further while he is kinda stuck doing introverted stuff, like reading and playing with his phone and such.My boyfriend he is a reader and likes to take it calm and not socialize that much. I feel like i'm the outgoing type although i'm actually also a bit introverted since i'm an artist. I love to cuddle with him and be near him of course. But most of the time, I just want to be social. I feel halfly separated from him and I just feel like there is not enough connection in our relationship. I want to and i'm thinking about everything about us and around and about expanding my puzzle, because I don't really have the strenght to give as much to him, since I feel like he can't really give me enough of what I need. I need support, love and more positivity also some ACTION. I can't always be the one who makes our world bright and fabulous. I could have my fab life before I moved in with him and then go to him once in a while. Now I just feel understimulated alot of the times and those times is often when I wanna be outgoing. Also he kind of lives on the edge to the city and the things I wanna do is mostly in the city.I'm just wondering alot. I just want everyone to feel happy and what I want is to hang out with exciting people. Yet be with my boyfriend and do my art. A thought is to split my personalities with him but also with another someone who I can be outgoing with.Thanks for listening to my ranting, if you want I would be glad if you could write down your thoughts to me.

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