Psycho

Hello /r/gay... I want to chat a little, me and my bf broke up 2 days ago, and well, i dont feel anything. He was the only good thing that happened to me, from being bullied and being pushed againts a wall from a teacher with his hand against my throat and me dangling with my feet from the ground, to HIM, beutiful kind intelectual and caring. We broke up on good ground, he has studies, and i need to grow up, and he needs to get to get in touch with his feelings adwell. I still love him... why do i not feel anything? (We lived together)