I’m sick of it

I’m writing this drunk but it’s something that I’ve needed to get off my chest/to tell someone who will listen.I’m sick of it all. I’m sick of lying to people. I’m sick of being uncomfortable when people talk to me about relationships and sex and feeling like I’m dodging bullets. I’m sick of feeling like I’m not up to par with other gay men. I’m sick of feeling out of place with my other friends. I’m sick of having no confidence in finding a relationship. I’m just sick of everything. It’s draining me, I’m tired.Sorry but my drunk ass just needed to get this out somewhere in hopes maybe someone will understand. /endrant