Where/how to get a sensual gay massage NYC (Possibly NSFW)

I really hope this doesn’t come across as dumb but I’m slowly coming out of the closet and I was thinking that I would like to have a sensual gay massage to kind of break the ice for me. I’ve never been touched by a man that way but it has always turned me on. Every time I’ve gotten a regular massage, I’ve always asked for a guy using the excuse that men are stronger. I would love to get a massage from a guy and end it with either a great hand job or blow job (both)?Where is a good place to look for one in NYC area? Not Craigslist.