Straight guy with a weird fantasy

So as the title indicates, I'm in a weird position. I'm completely straight (I expect plenty of comments saying I'm not). I have no attraction to guys, am not "straight" or curious. I have plenty of gay friends and am comfortable with my sexuality. I don't watch gay porn just not into it.Little background on me: I'm attractive in really good shape (was a college athlete) and am hung if that matters. I'm also in my mid twentiesFor whatever reason it is a big fantasy of mine to get forced to cum from a gay guy or group of guys from a handjob. I don't know if it is the humiliation aspect or being wanted so bad, but for whatever reason it is a major turn on to think about. I have always been on the dominant side of things which may explain why it sounds hot to be on the other side. I guess my question for this sub is this something I should pursue?Any advice would be helpful.