How do you unlove the love of your life?

If there are moments when you have let go, know that moving on is the right thing, and you see a speck of light at the end of all this, why does it still hurt so bad? You think about the would’ve, should’ve, and could’ves and rationalize through all that but in the end, the heart speaks louder. It tears you inside. You are heartbroken. The person that I’ve been with for two years got on a bus without the certainty of when I’ll see him again. It hurts. That uncertainty hurts. The non-closure left open for memories and second guessing to surface leaving only tears running down my face. Why am I crying if I’ve accepted? Why does it hurt my heart? Putting on Gloria Gaynor’s “I Will Survive” did not help at all - no matter how many times I’ve played it. The truth is that no matter what you do to make yourself feel better, the pain still exists. It’ll take time to subside but for now I’m hurting. I’m letting myself hurt. I’m crying over a failed relationship. Each hour that moves on, there’s the unknown if it’ll only get better or worst. That’s heartache. It is what it is. I’m heartbroken. One day I’ll be happy. One day I won’t be hurting and my heart will unbreak. For now, I’m not doing well. I’m suffocating. I’m drowning. I don’t know if my heart can take it anymore. It’s a fight between feeling the pain and being happy. How do you unlove someone that is the love of your life?