I hate being 19

This is something that has been bothering me since I started being sexually active (I'm barely active though).I'm a geeky guy who is in community college who sort of looks like a lesbian, and I am attracted to sweet, scruffy men, who usually happen to be in their 30's and 40's, and in their mid-20's at lowest.The problem is, I'm a romantic guy who wants to get intimate only in a potential relationship, and most older men seem to be really insecure to do anything with me, just because of my age. The last guy I saw was so insecure of dating me any further just because I was young, and as a young person I didn't want to go along with his life plans on having a family in a house with a white fence in the surburbs (maybe I will after many years, but who knows).I wish I were attracted to people around my age, but I can't stand them. I don't know why, maybe it's because I don't really find youth attractive.I just wish it was easier to find an older guy who wants to have a bf and that's it. It probably doesn't help that I'll turn 20 this year, since I may still seem to be too immature for the guys I like to take me seriously. I just wish I was born earlier. Maybe swap ages with my older brother.