Gay 18 year old ugly virgin

I'm short and ugly(from MALTA, a conservative island south of Sicily). My friends say i'm not but no one has ever shown interest in me (them included from before they knew i was gay). I have high standards unfortunately (i swear to god i wish i was interested in uglier guys). My group of friends are all straight and I'm really scared they're all getting boyfriends and i'm just gonna be alone. To add tot hat they're girls and feel uncomfortable having boy talks with me so I can't really talk much about that either. I need someone to talk to </3