College Sucks

I feel fat, stupid, and ugly. A sophomore in college with absolutely no friends, I never thought my life would turn out like this. It was always hard for me to go out and meet new people. I was always bullied for being cubby, feminine, and black. I didn't act like a normal boy growing up so, I was always picked on. But that's in the past. Last year, my roommates completely destroyed my self-esteem. I told them my secrets and insecurities because I trusted them. They seemed like great people so, I told them I was gay. Worst mistake of my life. It was my greatest secret. Turns out they were only nice because they were using me. They would have parties in our room with telling me. I had a final exam and my roommates still invited people over and partied. I told them to wait until the weekend but, obviously they didn't listen. Thank God I ended doing okay on the exam. Another instance is when a friend of mine cooked pasta for me but two of roommates decided to eat it without telling me. I didn't even bother arguing with them. I just ate the rest and made sandwiches for my friend (she is Muslim by the way). Yesterday, my roommates had a get-together for the new semester and didn't invite me. They made sure I saw their snaps and one of them had the audacity to message me about the get-together. He was like "I missed you" and "why weren't you at the get-together?". I almost cried. I am just sick and tired of it all. I just hope none of my family members find out I am gay. I am Muslim and trust me being gay is the last thing you want to be. My only friend knows I am gay now and she won't talk to me. Imagine what would happen if my family finds out.