When did you guys start engaging with your sexuality?

Hey guys,Over the part 6 or so months, I've found myself becoming really interested in LGBTQ+ culture. I'm 25 and have been out since I was 14, but it's only recently that I've begun to really look at the gay scene and become interested in what LGBTQ+ people have made (film, art, music, a language), and really start to feel myself associating with it and respecting it somewhat.I'm also having a lot of memories from my past about growing up as a gay man in a small English town (which I think I'd previously blocked out), and the effect it had upon me. I'm reading gay literature in an attempt to learn more about my sexuality and what it means to be a gay person.I'm also beginning to engage myself more sexually, and experimenting and exploring the more sexual side of myself. I'm recently in an open relationship so this is the perfect environment to do it I feel. That certainly isn't without insecurities, jealousies and the like, but I feel like I'm getting more out of it than it's taking out of me, and the more I do it, the more benefits and less negatives I feel.It's such a strange feeling. I feel like I've always been gay, of course I have. But recently, something has changed. I am, for whatever reason, showing a demonstrative interest in LGBTQ+ things, applying for jobs at LGBTQ+ charities, reading a lot more about our history, and taking more of a general interest. I'm identifying with a culture of which I've been part of, but never really known much about.What I'm experiencing is not without it's downsides. I'm learning about my own insecurities, which I previously thought were separate to one another, but am now realising many are a factor of being gay (body dysmorphia, self esteem issues, feelings of inadequacy against others etc). But overall I feel like I'm connecting with myself on an interesting level.Did this ever happen to any of you? I'm really interested to hear whether you've had the same experience. I'm reading The Velvet Rage at the moment and it talks about how men in the mid-twenties begin to have feelings of regression and looking back to (for me, a previously blocked out) childhood in order to understand who they are.