Relationship Advice

Hi guys. I've been struggling with my relationship for a little while and I could really use some advice because I don't have a lot of friends near me to talk about this with.I've known this guy for about three years now and we've been dating for just over two. There's been some up and down moments throughout it, like any relationship, but it had always been pretty good. But about five or six months ago, he told me that he had a dream where I proposed and he said no and it ended up ruining our relationship. I think he was trying to joke about it, but ever since, I've kind of been wondering how he really feels about me or a future with me. In the two years we've been together, he's never told me he loves me, just that he cares about me very much and I'm his closest/best friend. He lives in the same town that I do, but we only see each other maybe once a week at most because he's somewhat introverted. This wouldn't really a be a big deal except I'm the only one who ever suggests doing anything or trying to initiate spending time together.But so things had been kind of tense in the past few months and then a couple of weeks ago, he admitted that he still has feelings for an ex from before he knew me. Things have been even rougher lately and I'm not sure how to handle this. I asked him about going to couples counseling and he expressed concern about it being too expensive. When I showed him a free program that I had found, he came back and said that he really doesn't want to see a counselor because he doesn't like talking to strangers.Sorry. I'm sure that's a lot to read. But I'm really not sure what to do at this point. I think I'm going to talk to him in person about how important the counseling thing is to me. But I'd really appreciate any advice on this. Thanks for taking the time to read, anyway.