Messed up family

I've always know I was gay (since elementary) but I knew even then that my family had a history of homophobia since some cousins have been rejected and black sheeped for being who they were. But here is the problem, my family and even close family friends always exchange extremely gay sexual greetings and will openly joke about gay intercorse and blowjobs.For example, just two days ago when my brother in-law, dad, and I were building an extension to the house when my uncle and three of his construction works stopped by to check our progress. My dad starts by jokingly saying they were stopping to see how real men work and then it shift to how they stopped to see my brother in-law work with his huge muscles and how one of the works was in love with him. Instead of even jokingly denying it they joined in by saying how much they loved him and wanted him.Another example would be how they joke about blowing a family friend who owns a large ranch and even gives us a bull or two a year to butcher. They joke that who ever gets in the truck with him to look for the bull they're going to hunt has to blow him in the truck and how depending on the satisfaction he gets it affects the outcome if the animal.They also go really into detail like opening describing a rim job on a hairy man to using only spit to lubricate a large dick that's about to go in the ass. All the while I'm there smh on how hypocritical they're being whenever they say they hate gay people. Does anyone else have a family like this?