i had a crush on someone. pls help

So I was a 19 yearold boy live in one of unfortunate place to be gay. And i had a crush on someone so far away from me.He is so charming, calm, he is everything. But the saddest part is that he is too religious. And until today I still acting like a straight male in front of him. I know him for like 1 month and we have talked like everyday. He always said good morning and good night. He is everything that I need right now but he dont even know that I am gay. I was so scared.What should I do? Any thoughts? Thanks 😭😂