40hr first date. Really like this guy, but I'm cynical and scared.

This past weekend I went on my first true date in a long time. We started talking on Grindr about two weeks ago, both without profile pics and just looking for friends/LTR. By the next day we were texting. We made plans to meet on Friday. I was super nervous! I met him at the mall and I was waiting for him outside a Starbucks. He calls and asks where I'm at, and he's like "I think I see you!" I'm like yea! And I walk up to him and he greets me with a hug, which to me says a lot about a person. We hit it off really well, and I felt completely comfortable with him. We decided to go on an adventure to find a good smoothie place then sat outside and talked for a good two hours. Then I drove to the beach and we walked around and watched the sunset, afterwards we got dinner. We were enjoying each other's company so I asked if he wanted to go to "cosmic bowling" at the local bowling alley and he was down. I live in a smallish suburb that considers itself the "country" so you can imagine how the bowling alley would be...bunch of high school students and older folks. I felt silly taking him there but it was a blast. We got a couple drinks, bowled 4 games and went back to my place. Listened to music and chatted for a while, and he crashed there. We ended up cuddling all night.The next day I hadn't really planned on hanging out with him, as I was going to go to a small rave that night. But I wasn't opposed to us hanging out, so I just kinda let things go naturally. He said he was interested in going to the rave that night, he had never been to one. We got up and went back to his place and chilled there for a couple hours.We head back to my place and and I introduced him to my mom, who he was really excited to meet. Yea I live at home, I'm 23 and saving to move out. We all chatted for like 30min. Then we had lunch and made a coffee run. We started talking about the rave that night and he asked if I'd be upset if we did a rain check. I told him that's completely fine and would rather just have a chill night with him anyways, I wouldn't want him to be uncomfortable and have a bad time. Honestly we just talked a lot, listened to music and chilled most of that evening. I did one silly thing which was take MDMA (molly, e). I asked him if he was comfortable with me doing it and he said yes (he's never been around anyone on it). We danced in my living room, and again talked a lot. We went into my bed and had some good conversations and listened to music and cuddled a bunch. I told him a couple things that were truly from my heart, which I would usually be too shy to say. The next morning I reassured him the feelings were genuine. I had to work Sunday and drove him home in the morning and departed with a hug/kiss.But we ended up spending nearly 40 hours together. Something I did not anticipate at all. Not once was I annoyed by him, or wanted it to be over. We both talked about how at some points we weren't talking but it wasn't uncomfortable silence, like we were okay with just silence and each other's presence. And he said he felt like being with me was natural. I felt the same way. I love listening to him talk, his idiosyncrasies are adorable, and looking into his eyes makes my heart melt. I am always uncomfortable introducing new friends to me mom, and have never brought someone whom I'm interested in home while she's there. The other night she asked if he was "more than a friend to me", to which I replied yes and she said it was perfectly fine with her and she likes him.We are supposed to meet again this weekend and I'm so excited, but I'm also scared. I'm insecure. I get anxious when 5hrs go by with a text not replied to, which I know is irrational but from my past its this unwanted trigger I can't control. I've been rejected so many times, not even rejected but just ignored...texts never replied to (no I'm not crazy texted, I follow the 3 text rule).How can I chill out? I'm one of those kinds of people who when they fall, they fall hard and who makes the key to their heart too available. But I've gotten stronger, and I know the difference between lust and love. I recognize when I'm being taken advantage of, and when something needs to be walked away from. I want to trust him, and I need to trust him. He is not like any other guy I have ever met. He didn't want to fuck, he didn't have any ulterior motive. He was genuine, kind, compassionate. When we kissed it was gentle, and I felt love and passion. But I know guys are guys. And I'm scared. Wise men say only fools rush in, so fuck me I'm a fool I guess.