Interesting behavior in myself

So I have an interesting behavior that I've noticed in myself that I'm trying to change. Thought it was worth a post, maybe someone has thoughts.Example encounter: Walking on a sidewalk. Cute guy walks by in the other direction, obviously gay. I divert my eyes, look at my phone, etc. I don't know if it's from years of being in the closet, not wanting anyone to notice if I check this guy out, or what. But I keep subconsciously cockblocking myself and probably coming across as a complete asshole.Anyone have any thoughts? Ever done this yourself? Gotten past it?