Feeling anxious

Hi all,I'm new to Reddit and I'm interested in getting some advice or interpretations on some things that have been going on in my life recently.2016 was a year of great change for me: I decided to change job, career and the place I lived in. I also started a new academic course. I had been living in a town for a couple of years and felt that I needed a new challenge. I also had found it quite difficult to make new friends (although I did have a handful of good ones nearby).So I decided to make the changes and started my new life elsewhere. My heart wanted to go to Spain to do English teaching, but I also got into a good course in the UK and my family also thought that this was a better choice, so I chose the latter.It was an exciting time, although I did I met really great people and felt so new again. I also met an amazing guy who I unfortunately couldn't continue seeing because of the demands of my course and our locations. However, I found the new job and its commitments incredibly tough to bear. With little support in my job, and working 75 hours each week, I decided to quit the job at Christmas. I didn't have any money left and I've now had to move back home.Things are better now. I moved home with my family and now I have time and space to figure out what I would like to do. The trouble is that I've lost all my confidence to make a decision and really focus on what I would like to do. All in all, I feel pretty anxious about the future 😕. What if I never move on?I think I may have made the situation worse today by hooking up with a guy from an app. I don't know why I did it, and although we were safe and he was a nice guy, it had made me feel so guilty and horrible. I feel like it's. Or the kind of interaction I want with guys; it's fun, but it makes me feel one-sided 😞.Sometimes I feel so scared to be an independent person with their own choices and decisions, and I feel as though it's so difficult to get these things right. Does anyone know what I mean?Thanks for reading. Any advice or thoughts welcome.