help with denial

ok so im a gay 23 m i found our when i was 19 i came out a year ago families ok with it. only problem is i still have fantasies about women. non sexual relationship ones. just chilling with them talking to them cuddling sex too sometimes. the bad thing is once i come back to reality and i remember im gay it hurts and i feel sad. i dont want to feel sad thinking about me being gay i want to feel good about it. also i just want to not think about women or not get too excited about the fantasies. how do i replace straight fantasies with gay ones