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I think I'm romantically bisexual. I love women. I'm married to a woman, and I look at porn with women in it but I want gay men to find me attractive and to want me. I've tried things with men before. I've kissed men, and a man has sucked my dick before (he didn't finish, asshole) and I sometimes fantasize about sucking a man's dick. A pretty man, that is. No ugly sob like myself.I think I'm posting this because no one knows this side of me. And no one will. I just go along with life in this totally hetero casing where I'm the dude who's just really chill because it's the path of least resistance. I'm married with a wonderful woman who I love and I have wonderful in-laws who I love and everything is fine so why bother the water by being like "hey guys btw, I'm romantically bisexual and I'm not gonna cheat on my wife but there are some dudes who make me weak in the knees and I'm telling you this so you can know the whole me. Group hug."That would go over like a heart attack on Christmas morning.So here I am, shouting it out into space for all to hear but none to know cause I have to say it sometimes.Anyone feel me on this one? Don't tell me I'm alone.