Gay but

Hey redditors I have a strange question am I bi or straight?! I thought I was gay because I'm awkward around and why would I be unless I was gay. Also when gay guys hit on me I freak and obsess about it. But hers the weird part I masturbate only to girls naked or spread out or solo or lesbian. Only time I jerk off to guys is blowjob videos but even then I'm always looking at the girl. And on the streets I'm checking out only girls. A lot of the times I wanna to touch them or keep talking to them. But I just end up telling myself no you're gay stop pretending to want to them idk I just wanted your opinion